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How to get out of hell

What is hell? Hell is one's own mind when it's under the control of the ego. Here's an actual picture of the inside of my brain before recovery: How can you tell it's under the control of the ego? Desire, excitement, tension, fear, anxiety, grievance, resentment, guilt, shame, etc. None of what follows is novel or new, and I've written about these matters many times before, but it does no harm to periodically update the list and ensure it is furnished with my latest experiences and tips. What is set out below is basically everything I have tried that has worked plus a few things that really do not help. Have a good daily programme Pages 84 to 88 of the Big Book  cover comprehensively how to structure and manage the day, from the moment one gets up in the morning until one goes to sleep at night. I will not rehash those four pages here, save to say the content falls under the headings of Steps Ten and Eleven, which can be read about comprehensively here and here . P

Angstfrühstück

Death threats: a tightening up

Wants and needs, requests and demands

Running

How to 'turn it over'

Spirituality and materialism

What and who? What for whom?

Blinkers

Impulse and relapse

Cannot or will not

A talk on control ...

Flyer-itis

Godless, selfish, hopeless

Plans

Abandonment

Zombie

Two mice

The page 44 'or'

Den Hund zum Jagen tragen

God and prayer

Bag of tricks and humblebragging

A talk on Tradition V in Al-Anon ...

The logic of believing in a Higher Power

Work vs service

Anonymity

Attraction and promotion

A talk on the basics of AA ...

Stalking

Smashed

Score cards

Räuberleiter

Vernacular

A talk on Step Three ...

Stones and demonstrations

This and that

Fear of emotion

Lightbulb moment

InstaFour

Not happy or unhappy

Not this, not that

Oh, my!

Dimmer switch

Being drunk through

Twisted fire starter

Grow where you're planted