“Before we begin, we ask God to direct our thinking, especially asking that it be divorced from self-pity, dishonest or self-seeking motives.” (Page 86, Big Book)
One wakes up directed by the ego—the monster that has caused all the mischief. It’s still grinning at you. It blames all the misfortune it wreaks on others. The alternative to God’s direction is not one’s own but its direction—one is necessarily directed by something.