“They are over-remorseful and make many resolutions, but never a decision.” (The Doctor’s Opinion)
A decision is where I cut off all but one of the options, leaving one and one only.
I stop thinking, start acting, and defer further assessment until all the data are in.
That takes way longer than I think.
Decisions really have to be final for me.
The future is kicked so far away that I forget it is there.
There is only the now.
If I leave the back door open, I’ll always feel a draught.
If I allow re-assessment of the decision, I’ll waver.
That’s why I kept relapsing, before I made a decision.