“We know what you are thinking. You are saying to yourself: ‘I’m jittery and alone. I couldn’t do that.’ But you can. You forget that you have just now tapped a source of power much greater than yourself. To duplicate, with such backing, what we have accomplished is only a matter of willingness, patience and labor.” (Page 163, Big Book)
When I was early in recovery, I got to ‘999’ [‘911’] call
other people, because I had no programme.
Now, I ‘999’ call myself when I’m in trouble. I have
knowledge and experience, and there are usually lots of things that need to
done, resumed, or tightened up. I do not need others to tell me to do
inventory, pray, meditate, go to a meeting, return sponsee calls, do spiritual
reading, cast through the Big Book or ODAT for useful passages, and get on with
fulfilling my everyday obligations.
There will be a point in the process where I need to relate
what is going on to friend and consult with a sponsor. And I certainly need to
seek God’s guidance and power throughout. But I am to take responsibility and
not outsource.