When I'm doing God's will, I'm usually just humming along, not really thinking about anything but the task at hand.
Here are some indicative signs of being in self-will:
- Strong feelings of desire, wanting, longing, fantasy, or nostalgia
- Strong feelings of repugnance, aversion, or avoidance
- Apathy, boredom, or unusual tiredness
- Distraction, restlessness, or inability to concentrate
- Spending money without planning
- Spending money beyond one's means
- Taking actions that jeopardise structural elements (relationships, work, home)
- Conflicted drives or motivations or other uncertainty
- Excitement, getting carried away
- Taking action based on:
- Impulse
- Apparent 'imperatives' (feeling you have to do something now ... or else)
- Compulsion
- Fear
- Anger
- Guilt
- Shame
- Excitement
- Ideas that are very recent
- JEDI mind-tricks (in thought or communication with others)
- Justification
- Explanation
- Defence
- Intentions (the expression of, good or bad, past or future)
- Rescheduling, juggling, changing one's mind, reorganising others, or cancellation
- A build-up of tasks not performed
- Failure to discharge obligations
- Avoidance of necessary actions
- Mentally blocking out certain responsibilities
- Making or considering more than one major change at a time
- Making or considering more than one major change in a short period
- Avoiding people who express caution or concern or counsel pausing
- Seeking out people who are unquestioningly supportive of whatever one does
Count up how many have occurred over the past week.