The horror of being 'true to myself': the upholding of a self-image, the pursuit of my own goals, the construction of a sandcastle on a beach in the rain, suspicion of others, hostility towards others, eventually the disappearance of others altogether as I consider only myself. That is hell.
Surrender to God must be voluntary. If I do not surrender voluntarily, God will not insist.
The great tragedy is not failing to get my own way.
The great tragedy is getting it.