Don't accidentally recover!

If you go to strong meetings, it's very possibly to accidentally recover.

Here are some ways of making sure you absolutely don't.

1. Misconstrue discussion of God

A very simple way to block progress is to construe the Big Book as telling us that God is a man, presuppose that men are bad, conclude that God is bad, and therefore reject God altogether. This is very easy, because God is referred to with the pronoun He, although, by studiously avoiding what religions actually say about God (i.e. not a man, and not male) and the historical convention of using He to denote anything animate but ungendered (as in contract law), one can uphold this view with very little disturbance. Without a Higher Power one needs must, of course, rely on oneself, and that's a super recipe for preventing oneself from recovering. Share this with the group, and look very sullen as you do so, but, whatever you do, do not make eye contact with anyone, because that would entail the risk of forming a connection, getting into a conversation, and having your ideas challenged and overturned. Rush from the meeting before the Serenity Prayer has died out. To this end, get your coat on and bag ready towards the end of the meeting.

2. Deploy the concept of unsafety

If you don't like something, just call it unsafe. Describe your sponsor as unsafe, particularly if they suggest you take action and show up for your commitment, call you out on your manipulation and avoidance, or suggest that you're not the Captain of Knowing Things. Describe meetings as unsafe, especially meetings about the Twelve Steps. Describe ideas as unsafe. This last one is especially useful, as, whilst particular meetings and people are located in time and space and thus limited in their danger, ideas are not so restricted and seem to hover nowhere in particular. If you cast an idea as unsafe, then attach that idea to to the programme, to AA, or to recovery more broadly, you can propagate the idea of unsafety to the whole realm of the spirit. It's important to keep yourself safe, and, if doing so means rejecting any new ideas and sticking to the old ones, so be it!

3. Blame other people

Practise saying, 'Sally makes me feel ...', 'You make me feel ...', 'What you said made me feel ...', so that, when you feel bad, you can very swiftly blame someone else for it.

Apart from unsafe, very good things to claim that others make you feel are vulnerable, anxious, frightened, stressed, etc. Cite diagnoses and disorders, and make oblique reference to alarming-sounding childhood experiences, but don't go into any specifics. Leave them guessing.

This can be helpfully combined with 2.

A very good way of concealing the fact you are blaming them is to suggest you are informing them so that they can extend the courtesy of adjusting themselves to other sensitive souls such as yourself. This way, everyone will see that you're actually performing a community service. It is not on your own account you're taking the trouble to inform the miscreants of their misdeeds.

4. If you do service, make a meal of it

This is a very versatile tool. Some examples:

1. Huff and puff about how inconvenient and unreasonable the service is.
2. Consistently fail to show up, but then bring a grievance when you're ousted from the role. Wave the threat of intergroup or GSO over the group.
3. If chairing or hosting a meeting, make it all about your reaction to the fact you're chairing. Make it the you-show. Eclipse the substance of the meeting with your own voluptuous performance.
4. Consistently refuse to do what the group wants or asks you to do, instead doing precisely as you wish, and complain bitterly if anyone remonstrates.

5. Make extravagant and lavish commitments

The more self-abasing the promise, the deeper the bow, the better. Then make sure you do nothing at all of what you committed to. Doing a little will ruin the dramatic effect altogether. Go out with a bang, not a whimper!