Unmanageability

If I do bad stuff on impulse, if I do stuff that harms myself and others, if I do stuff that I regret, my life is unmanageable. The same applies with things I ought to do but don't. Acts of omission as well as acts of commission.

What does that mean?

It means I'm powerless.

If I'm not stupid and I'm not mad, which I'm not, it means I'm powerless.