Resentment

I can get so used to talking about resentment as though it's socially acceptable

"I've got a resentment", I will say

The truth is that the problem is not out there

It's inside

The problem when I have a resentment is not their behaviour

It's my character

When I force myself to say, rather than "I'm resentful",  "I'm mean-spirited" [which is what resentment is], I find myself much more promptly working to eliminate the actual problem, which is not others, but my mean-spiritedness

I recognise that by acknowledging my bankruptcy, I empty myself out, and I go straight to the Higher Power for an entirely different way of looking at things