There are times one has to declare all-out war.
Not against alcoholism.
Not against the ego.
But for connection with God.
There are times one has to learn prayers off by heart and simply repeat them over and over, concentrating on their meaning, for minutes, hours, even days.
Eventually you break through the cloud.
And the material universe totters and falls.
There is nothing really there: there is only the Kingdom of God.
Victory is yours for the asking and the effort.