how does resentment give rise to all forms of spiritual disease?
my take:
the underlying problem is a false belief in separation from god and in its corollary: i am a separate being, pitted against all other separate beings, who are occasionally allies but mostly in competition
the belief in separation and resentment go hand in hand
the latter automatically flows from the former
however: they are simultaneous as cause and effect in eternity, outside time
like the iceberg, only part is visible unless you know where to look: the resentment is the visible part
the belief in separation automatically gives rise to the the unholy trinity of sin, guilt, and fear
these too occur simultaneously and automatically with the belief in separation
once i believe i am separated and i am simultaneously sinful, guilty, frightened, and resentful, literally all hell breaks loose
i forget i am spirit with my head in the clouds with god and believe i am the feet of clay on earth: who could not be frightened, relying on the little self i created for myself in the realm of the material?
i try to create an existence on earth—self-seeking—as a sufficient substitute for god
but it doesn’t work: i am the boy whistling in the dark
since others who are self-centred are doing the same, i end up in conflict, mis-creating confusion instead of harmony
and then i am at war
once i am at war, only an act of providence can release me
that is what a rock-bottom is: when i come to believe in the futility of life as i have been living it
the false belief in separation is healed first by step three, then by the prayers on 67, then by amends, and then by service
i am then readmitted to the fellowship of the spirit