There are times, irrespective of the length of sobriety, when so much mental garbage accumulates during the course of every day that major spiritual surgery seems required each morning to even begin to cope.
Be aware that such phases are normal. They are not a sign that the truth is a lie and that goodness will not prevail but that the ego is putting up a stout fight, maybe because it is being bolstered by identification with other egos.
Continue continuing, and the road will get easier. And then harder. And then easier. And out of every such season, if you lean into the wind, more blessings will accrue to you and those around you than in easier times.