Say this prayer (or something that expresses the same idea,
if you don’t believe in God—perhaps resolve to be open-minded):
‘God, I hereby
renounce all preconceived opinions; please set aside for me my present habits
of thought and my present views and prejudices; please jettison anything and
everything that can stand in the way of my finding the truth; remove my fear of
public opinion and of the disapproval of relatives or friends; help me see that
my most cherished beliefs may be mistaken and that my ideas and views of life
may be false and in need of recasting. Let me start again at the very beginning
and learn life anew.’
Before you begin, make a list of the types of sexual
behaviour that are causing a problem because you are engaging in them
excessively or at all, despite negative consequences:
- Fantasy
- Flirting or hunting for
sex
- Use of dating/hook-up apps
- Masturbation
- Porn
- Fetishes
- Predatory or pressurising
behaviour
- Sex with negative
consequences
- Other: ___________
We’re going to call this ‘acting out’.
You will have to substitute ‘acting out’ for drinking when
reading the passages in the Big Book.
Opening paragraphs—the definition of alcoholism
‘The idea that somehow, someday he would control and enjoy his
drinking is the greatest obsession of every abnormal drinker.’ (30:1)
When you controlled your acting out, did you enjoy yourself?
When you enjoyed it, could you control it?
‘We alcoholics are men and women who have lost the ability to
control our drinking. We know that no real alcoholic ever recovers control. All
of us felt at times that we were regaining control, but such intervals—usually
brief—were inevitably followed by still less control, which led in time to
pitiful and incomprehensible demoralization. We are convinced to a man that
alcoholics of our type are in the grip of a progressive illness. Over any
considerable period we get worse, never better.’ (30:3)
Have you thought you were getting better, only to get worse
again?
‘Here are some of the methods we have tried: Drinking beer
only, limiting the number of drinks, never drinking alone, never drinking in
the morning, drinking only at home, never having it in the house, never
drinking during business hours, drinking only at parties, switching from scotch
to brandy, drinking only natural wines, agreeing to resign if ever drunk on the
job, taking a trip, not taking a trip, swearing off forever (with and without a
solemn oath), taking more physical exercise, reading inspirational books, going
to health farms and sanatoriums, accepting voluntary commitment to asylums—we
could increase the list infinitum.’ (31:2)
Is this you?
‘We do not like to pronounce any individual as alcoholic, but
you can quickly diagnose yourself. Step over to the nearest barroom and try
some controlled drinking. Try to drink and stop abruptly. Try it more than
once. It will not take long for you to decide, if you are honest with yourself
about it. It may be worth a bad case of jitters if you get full knowledge of
your condition.’ (31:3)
Could you do this, consistently?
The Man of Thirty
Read the story about the ‘man of thirty’ (32:2–33:1).
Have you stopped for a while but started again?
Was the physical craving still there when you started again?
If you slipped today, do you believe you could come back into
recovery?
Jim’s Story—the ‘peculiar mental twist’
Read Jim’s story (35:2–37:2).
Jim was doing OK on the outside but drank anyway. Do you
believe you’ll stay clean because you’re doing OK on the outside?
Bill, on pages 14/15 enlarges his spiritual life by work and
self-sacrifice for others, whilst Jim, on pages 35 and 36, make some progress
but does not enlarge his spiritual life.
Are you making every effort to live inside the three sides
of the recovery triangle—recovery, fellowship, and service?
Jim’s insane thought—that the milk with the whiskey will
keep him safe from a binge—comes suddenly, with no warning.
Has your mind ever given you a crazy excuse for acting out?
Has that ever happened suddenly?
The Parallel-Thinker—’the curious mental phenomenon’
‘But there was always the curious mental phenomenon that
parallel with our sound reasoning there inevitable ran some insanely trivial
excuse for taking the first drink.’ (37:2)
Have you ever argued in your head about whether or not to act
out?
Can you consistently win those arguments?
The Jaywalker
Read the jaywalker story (37:3–38:3).
Do you have a history of acting out for thrills or kicks,
despite the consequences?
Fred’s Story—the ‘strange mental blank spot’
Read Fred’s story (39:2–43:1).
Fred thought he’d stay sober now he knew he was an
alcoholic.
When did you realise you were in trouble with your acting
out? Did that knowledge stop you and keep you stopped?
Fred imagined he’d have two nice cocktails with dinner, and
he does exactly that. But his mind does not tell him what will happen after
that.
What he thinks is true but incomplete—this is the strange
mental blank spot.
Have you ever experienced this?
Wrap-up questions
‘then asked me if I thought myself alcoholic and if I were
really licked this time. I had to concede both propositions.’ (42:1)
‘there is no doubt in my mind that you were 100% hopeless,
apart from divine help.’ (43:2)
‘The alcoholic at certain times has no effective mental
defence against the first drink. Except in a few rare cases, neither he nor any
other human being can provide such a defence. His defence much come from a
Higher Power.’ (43:3)
Are you an addict?
Are you defeated?
Do you need a Higher Power?