Can I take the credit?

I could legitimately take credit only for any concrete actions I have taken.

However, these were taken out of desperation and later out of self-interest, ultimately, so there is is no great merit there.

To anyone wanting to take the credit: what are you going to do with the credit once you have it? It is just to get a little kick and feel a little self-satisfied?

I am afraid I have burned myself out trying to build a life specifically so I can take credit. That is precisely what pride is about: building an identity rather than dissolving into the universe and being one with it.

I am happiest, most useful, and most cheerful when I have forgotten myself entirely. As Chuck C. said: I haven't any more an image of me than I have of a walrus.