Surrender questions

Do I want to fit my life around AA or AA around my life?
Do I want spiritual growth and a spiritual awakening for their own sake or only in as far as they help me realise my own plans?
Do I still believe that my plans for happiness will work or do I believe that only God's will for me can bring happiness?
Am I happy simply to serve God for the sake of serving God or do I still want God to serve me?
Do my prayers reflect the former or the latter?
Am I consistent with my AA actions?
When I put other things first do I admit it or do I rationalise?
Am I still driven by money, sex, power, prestige, comfort, thrills, and appearance?
Am I now ready to give up and just serve?