“God comes to most men gradually, but His impact on me was sudden and profound.” (Page 14)
You can surrender all at once, now, or you can surrender gradually, one finger at a time (imagine you’re hanging off a cliff). With each finger released, you are still hanging from the cliff just as much as before. You’ve not risked a thing. You could let go at any point, but the will isn’t there. There is only the will to release one finger, and one more finger. You get to the last finger, but you still can’t release it. Here’s the blessing: you could hang on indefinitely holding on with all ten fingers, with both hands, but, with one finger, you’ll eventually tire and let go against your will. Without ever having decided to surrender completely, you find yourself just as surrendered as the person who jumped off the cliff voluntarily.
This is how unwillingness is broken: have the willingness to take the next action, the next action, the next action. Eventually, you’ll surrender despite yourself because you’re too tired to resist any more.