“Friends who have reasoned with him after a spree which has brought him to the point of divorce or bankruptcy are mystified when he walks directly into a saloon. Why does he? Of what is he thinking?” (Page 35, Big Book)
In ‘The Manchurian Candidate’, the individual is brainwashed
into acting as an assassin.
When such sleeper agents are activated, an entirely
different course of action is followed.
That entirely different course of action is not the
individual’s real will.
The individual, thus activated, would not be a reliable
reporter of why he is doing what he is doing.
He is acting under alien instructions, in accordance with an
alien will, and his true will is suppressed.
This is me in active addiction.
Except the target of the drip-drip(-into-the-gin-glass) assassination
attempt is me.
I am not ‘thinking’: I am being acted through by my
addiction, yet believe I am acting in accordance with my will.