“Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.” (Chapter 5, Big Book)
When I surrender, I stop fighting and recognise that the gameplan of self is dead in the water.
At this point I’m still turned towards self as the source of direction and strength.
I then need to turn, re-turn, return to God as the source of direction and strength.
I have had a very small number of surrenders.
The turning, re-turning, and returning happens many times a day.