“Or perhaps he doesn’t think at all.” (Chapter 2, Big Book)
A bit of my brain notes when something hits the mark. Food, drink, drugs, romantic activities. It makes a list, and periodically sends up the request ‘for more’ (like Oliver Twist) to the command-and-control centre (CACC).
In a regular person, the CACC weighs the evidence.
In active alcoholism: not me!
The CACC was dimmed. Half asleep. Just flagging through the desire for a hit and converting it into action.
Brain scans apparently show this dimming effect in active alcoholics and addicts. The CACC is literally dimmer.
And figuratively dimmer: not so bright any more, not so clever.